Trust and Faith

Sometimes my faith in God seems to be a little shaken.  

At the end of the school year, right when I was about to add a new lens to my tiny collection, my Jeep got towed and I was out the $145 that I needed. My faith was shaken for a moment. When I thought I wouldn't have the money for gas or food, God gave me a dog sitting job and 3 babysitting opportunities that very weekend. 

Why is it so easy for me to trust that God will give me tacos and bagels but it's hard for me to trust Him to give me $3,000 for our mission trip?

Its funny that this fear is rising a few days after I prayed for God to give me more faith. Satan tried to attack, but I spent a weekend with God and we pushed Satan away together. I know that God wants me to go to Nicaragua, it's been on my heart for a while now. I know that he wants me to use my photography to share His glory and His people's story. I also know that God is really wanting my faith to be strong when I go on this trip. 

I believe that God is using this fundraising as a way to build my faith in Him. While we are in Nicaragua we are going to be praying over people in a hospital in Managua and I know that while we are there I am going to need a lot of faith. The prayers that we will be praying can not be fake or half believed. If we do not believe and have 100% faith that Christ will heal those people then our prayers may not be answered. I know that even if I have faith that God will heal those people He may still have another plan for them, but I do not want to walk away from that situation thinking that my lack of faith may be to blame for them not being healed.

Why is it so easy for me to trust that God will give me tacos and bagels but it’s hard for me to trust Him to give me $3,000 for our mission trip?

God wants us to go on this mission trip. I know that He wants us to spread His word to people around the world. I was baptized last September and I believe that this is the next step in my journey that God wants me to take. I began studying 1st and 2nd Timothy to prepare for the mission world after I was baptized and I think that now may be a good time to revisit it.

"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses." - 1 Timothy 6:12

I can not wait to get to Nicaragua! I know that my relationship with God is going to continue to grow while we are there and in my head I'm already planning for my next trip back!